I've been having a hard time feeling motivated to do anything since I officially started my winter break. My plan had been to start running everyday so that I can run a half marathon at the end of January but I just haven't been feeling like doing anything productive. I've gone to run one time since I finished my exams last Thursday, I feel like a lazy ass. I feel tired all the time. It's hard though because I have really bad allergies that have been bothering me for the last couple weeks and sometimes they make me tired, but in the back of my mind I wonder if there is another cause for my tiredness. I still think about the possibility of MS more than I would like. I have also been having more tingling in my extremities than I had been having. Being tired for no apparent reason is another symptom of MS. For those of you who don't know, Multiple Sclerosis (MS) is a disease where your body starts attacking the myelin sheath that protects your nervous system. It causes damage to your nervous system and will cause lesions in your brain. It progresses over time. You can have a sudden oncoming of symptoms where they all happen at the same time and don't go away, or you can have relapsing-remitting where there are times where the symptoms come and last days to months and then there are times of remission where there are no symptoms at all. I am NOT saying that I have this at all because I don't (let me say it again I DO NOT HAVE MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS!), but the doctor made it clear that it can take years to determine if someone has the disease sometimes and that I should continue to watch for symptoms and signs just in case. Its just a little scary sometimes.
Anywho, I made a list of all the things I want to get done before school starts again. I have about 10 things to do. One thing that I really want to get done that I've been putting off is making a personal mission statement and putting it up in my room so I can look at it everyday. I think it's really important and it might give me some extra motivation to get things done. I also want to make a quote board. If anyone knows of any good quotes, please post them in the comments, I love quotes. I also need to start going over my anatomy coloring book in hopes that it will actually help me in my anatomy & physiology class next semester. It's kind of a scary class because I know it's gonna be hard, I just don't know how hard it's going to be. I feel like I've already been on winter break for a week or something, but its only been 5 days, including a weekend, since I took my last exam. I've got lots of time!...if I don't procrastinate. Lol!