I didn't realize it had been basically all summer since I had been on here. It was a very busy summer and I just felt like taking a break from blogging for a while. I'm on it now though! I am super excited for school to start on Thursday. I took 2 summer classes, A&P 2 and World Religions over the summer. A&P kicked my ass but I made it out with an A. It was a lot of information to take in in short amount of time. It was cool though and I am very happy that I took it with the spectacular instructor I had (love you Heather!). World religions sucked because it was online and the instructor didn't seem all that interested in the class. No feedback, it took awhile for him to respond. That's ok, it was all I needed to get college diploma #1.
The last 4 weeks have been fun with my little people and my husband. I found out that the deal with my knee was not as serious as they had thought at first. I definitely do have arthritis (which I had already suspected) and I have patellar tracking disorder which basically means my knee is off track and it causes almost identical symptoms to a meniscus tear. God had a plan though, and although He wanted to make sure I did not work, He didn't want me to have to go through surgery to fix the issue. What it really comes down to is I have to deal with it and find ways to alleviate the pain as well as get stronger. The doctor gave me a shot (which sucked ass!!) and it seems to have helped alot. I am back on my running though and I am planning on doing the PF Changs Rock n Roll half marathon in January. It feels good to be back on it.
My husband has been super spectacular despite the fact that he has not found a job. He is trying to put together a non-profit organization for kids so they can play basketball, volleyball, and eventually a few other sports. There are a lot of things he wants to incorporate, but he's starting out with basketball because that is what we love but there is so much more he wants to get into like child care. God is definitely showing him that he is on the right path, but it feels as though there is something missing. All we can do is stay prayerful and be open to what it is that He asks from us.
So ASU seems like it is going to be absolutely phenomenal. I cannot wait! I decided to only take 14 credits this semester so that I don't overwhelm myself in this first semester. I will have very full days but its going to be awesome. I have also become part of an organization that I think will be very beneficial for students on campus. It's called D.A.N.T.S. (Downtown Association for Non-Traditional Students). I am the Officer of Budget and I am really hoping that it becomes something that really welcomes the older, adult students at the Downtown campus. It's going to be a lot of work but I think it will really be beneficial for members as well as the officers. Of course it will make my application more appealing for medical school, but in the today, it could really make a difference in how people view and fell about their college experience. My hope is that instead of feeling like there is no support or that the young "kids" in class cannot relate to us as mature students with jobs and/or families, that we can feel like there is a community that can relate to our experience and is willing to understand and listen when we need it. The people I have met thus far have been awesome. I can't wait!!!!
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Are You Going to Use Those Coupons?
Wow! It's been a month since I last posted. My A&P class has really been kicking my ass. I am doing well but it has felt like I am always studying for a test or a lab practical. This is my last week though so I am really excited. The class has been awesome, and my instructor even more so, but I have to say that I probably would not take a class with a lab in the summer again. Although I have done well on the tests and I have an A in the class, I feel like I am not learning the information as thoroughly as I would like to and I'm just kind of regurgitating on the tests. Although I have almost 2 months off before I start the fall semester, I will probably be reviewing this class and focusing on book I found about the breakdown of medical terminology. I say that I have nothing else I will be doing, when in fact I am also taking a World Religions class. I like the class though and it is entirely online and really isn't that difficult.
I am really looking forward to spending more time with my boys, adult one included, and just hanging out. I have found a new "hobby" though. I say "hobby" but it has become somewhat of an OCD obsession. Have you watched Extreme Couponing? I wouldn't say I go to those extremes, but I do have a book for my coupons, I very rarely shop without coupons and I get daily emails about coupons. I will very likely do it even more when this class is done because I will have more time to find coupons and go to stores to find deals. My husband and mother in law thought I was crazy when I first started a few weeks ago, but I have since converted them. I have gotten stuff for free or almost free. I have started "stockpiling" stuff because it is totally worth it. My husband still has not found a job so we have to find the cheapest way of getting everything. It's kind of fun too, for me anyway. Lol! It's like a scavenger hunt to find the best deals. I think a lot of the ladies on that show are kind of crazy (Who REALLY needs 125 candy bars or 400 boxes of cereal?) but I feel like it really does help when you don't have the money to buy household items. I mean, I do get food items, but the non-food items are really the best deals because they tend to be so expensive (not that I didn't get 9 bottles of BBQ sauce for free yesterday! LOL!) and they are still necessary despite their price sometimes. I'm totally OCD about it so I'm trying to keep it under control but there are so many coupons!
So I ended up having to go to an orthopedic surgeon a couple of weeks ago and last week I got an MRI on my knee. I'm supposed to go talk about my results next week but I'm pretty certain that I will be getting surgery and returning to physical therapy. When I went to see the doctor he told me that I in fact do have arthritis, which I had been told I did not, and that he could see some "stuff" in the back of my knee that is not supposed to be there. So what I am guessing is that some of my meniscus may have torn off completely and is basically floating around in my joint. To be honest, I was really excited to go see him because I have been thinking that I want to go into orthopedics after med school. If I could, I would totally want to watch my surgery but I'm pretty sure they do not allow that. I did find out that my doctor does have residents at his practice which I am excited about and when I go next week I am going to ask him if he allows shadowing in the practice since he is one of the owners. How exciting!!
OH!! How could I forget?! Last week I was accepted into Barrett Honors College at ASU. Woo-hoo! I am so freaking excited. I've already registered for at least one honors class and I may get into one more of the instructor allows it. There is this really cool program I want to try to get into with the Mayo Clinic for pre-med students. It's really exciting for me and I'm really looking forward to it. I just need to get through this week. ;-)
I am really looking forward to spending more time with my boys, adult one included, and just hanging out. I have found a new "hobby" though. I say "hobby" but it has become somewhat of an OCD obsession. Have you watched Extreme Couponing? I wouldn't say I go to those extremes, but I do have a book for my coupons, I very rarely shop without coupons and I get daily emails about coupons. I will very likely do it even more when this class is done because I will have more time to find coupons and go to stores to find deals. My husband and mother in law thought I was crazy when I first started a few weeks ago, but I have since converted them. I have gotten stuff for free or almost free. I have started "stockpiling" stuff because it is totally worth it. My husband still has not found a job so we have to find the cheapest way of getting everything. It's kind of fun too, for me anyway. Lol! It's like a scavenger hunt to find the best deals. I think a lot of the ladies on that show are kind of crazy (Who REALLY needs 125 candy bars or 400 boxes of cereal?) but I feel like it really does help when you don't have the money to buy household items. I mean, I do get food items, but the non-food items are really the best deals because they tend to be so expensive (not that I didn't get 9 bottles of BBQ sauce for free yesterday! LOL!) and they are still necessary despite their price sometimes. I'm totally OCD about it so I'm trying to keep it under control but there are so many coupons!
So I ended up having to go to an orthopedic surgeon a couple of weeks ago and last week I got an MRI on my knee. I'm supposed to go talk about my results next week but I'm pretty certain that I will be getting surgery and returning to physical therapy. When I went to see the doctor he told me that I in fact do have arthritis, which I had been told I did not, and that he could see some "stuff" in the back of my knee that is not supposed to be there. So what I am guessing is that some of my meniscus may have torn off completely and is basically floating around in my joint. To be honest, I was really excited to go see him because I have been thinking that I want to go into orthopedics after med school. If I could, I would totally want to watch my surgery but I'm pretty sure they do not allow that. I did find out that my doctor does have residents at his practice which I am excited about and when I go next week I am going to ask him if he allows shadowing in the practice since he is one of the owners. How exciting!!
OH!! How could I forget?! Last week I was accepted into Barrett Honors College at ASU. Woo-hoo! I am so freaking excited. I've already registered for at least one honors class and I may get into one more of the instructor allows it. There is this really cool program I want to try to get into with the Mayo Clinic for pre-med students. It's really exciting for me and I'm really looking forward to it. I just need to get through this week. ;-)
Thursday, May 19, 2011
'Like a good neighbor, State Farm is there....with a hot tub!'
So its been a minute. Finals had me totally occupied before them and left me exhausted after them. I graduated last Friday. YAY!! It was a really cool moment in life but Monday the grind started again. My BIO 202 (Anatomy & Physiology 2) is hardcore. I have already had 2 labs this week and I have probably 20 pages of notes just for this week. It's Monday-Thursday for 2 hours everyday and then Monday and Wednesday I have lab scheduled for 4 hours. I have my first test on Monday and my first lab practical next Wednesday. An exam EVERY week and a lab practical every other week. Whew! My instructor calls it boot camp. I love it though. It's pretty amazing how the body works (we're learning all the body systems in this course). We are starting with the cardiovascular system. I feel like it's all I think about because it requires daily studying, daily note typing and constant review. I suppose it is comparable to what I will be doing in medical school. They cram a whole lot of stuff in a small period of time and expect you to master it. It had never really occurred to me until this moment the comparison between the two. I had been thinking that perhaps I would not take summer courses the next few years but maybe it could be a great preparation for me. Hmmmmmm...
So my family got great news last week, we had put in a motion to vacate my husband's misdemeanor and it was granted. For those of you who are not familiar with the impact of that, my husband had a misdemeanor for assault on his record. He had never been in trouble with the law before then and has not been in trouble since then but he had a minimum of 6 companies tell him that they could not hire him because of that single offense. It has made finding a job very difficult for him and, unfortunately, left my husband feeling a little depressed and hopeless when looking for a job. It's been hard for me too because I want to be supportive and understanding of the situation but at the same time I was getting stressed because our sources for funds have been dwindling (all of the credit cards are maxed out) and with nothing coming in I was really considering working part time while trying to take classes and be a good mommy. I came to the realization that working right now is not part of the path God wants me on, but I was worried because I felt like it put a lot of pressure on my husband to provide for our family. The granting of the motion to vacate has put a little pep in my husband's step and he's just really excited now. His hopelessness has been replaced by hopefulness. God has always provided for us when we needed and asked. I think I just need to pray for patience because I just want to know what he has planned for us now!
So over the past weekend we participated in the Relay for Life. It's an overnight walk to raise money for cancer research and awareness. They have them at high schools, on the football field so that the participants can walk around the track and pitch tents on the football field. Technically you are supposed to have someone on the track from the time you get there (3pm on Saturday) to the time you end (5am on Sunday). We totally didn't do that because we had my 2 boys as well as my 2 nephews and niece with us (my mother in law and I) and they are all under the age of 11. It was quite an experience. We let the little people stay up as late as they wanted, we sugared them up with snacks and let them graze like cows with all the snacks we brought the whole time and run around everywhere. They had a lot of fun. I was slightly depressed because I originally wanted to run a few times throughout the time we were there and really challenge myself, but because of my stupid knee (which it looks like I will have to get an MRI on because its not getting better :-( ) I basically sat down the whole time except walking around a couple times with my little people and then speed walking to the bathroom because the 3-year-old decided to wait until the last minute to tell me he had to pee. Awesomeness! So around 3am, my littlest one had finally fallen asleep and the 6-year-old was in full battle with the sandman, and it had gotten quite cold. He was sitting on my lap and we had my Snuggie (they really are pretty awesome!) wrapped around us. He says, "Mommy, I wish there was a hot tub here to warm us up." I said, "Ok, that's good thinking." Then he says, "I wish I could just say, 'Like a good neighbor, State Farm is there....with a hot tub!'" LMFAO! Kids say the best stuff, at the best time.
So my family got great news last week, we had put in a motion to vacate my husband's misdemeanor and it was granted. For those of you who are not familiar with the impact of that, my husband had a misdemeanor for assault on his record. He had never been in trouble with the law before then and has not been in trouble since then but he had a minimum of 6 companies tell him that they could not hire him because of that single offense. It has made finding a job very difficult for him and, unfortunately, left my husband feeling a little depressed and hopeless when looking for a job. It's been hard for me too because I want to be supportive and understanding of the situation but at the same time I was getting stressed because our sources for funds have been dwindling (all of the credit cards are maxed out) and with nothing coming in I was really considering working part time while trying to take classes and be a good mommy. I came to the realization that working right now is not part of the path God wants me on, but I was worried because I felt like it put a lot of pressure on my husband to provide for our family. The granting of the motion to vacate has put a little pep in my husband's step and he's just really excited now. His hopelessness has been replaced by hopefulness. God has always provided for us when we needed and asked. I think I just need to pray for patience because I just want to know what he has planned for us now!
So over the past weekend we participated in the Relay for Life. It's an overnight walk to raise money for cancer research and awareness. They have them at high schools, on the football field so that the participants can walk around the track and pitch tents on the football field. Technically you are supposed to have someone on the track from the time you get there (3pm on Saturday) to the time you end (5am on Sunday). We totally didn't do that because we had my 2 boys as well as my 2 nephews and niece with us (my mother in law and I) and they are all under the age of 11. It was quite an experience. We let the little people stay up as late as they wanted, we sugared them up with snacks and let them graze like cows with all the snacks we brought the whole time and run around everywhere. They had a lot of fun. I was slightly depressed because I originally wanted to run a few times throughout the time we were there and really challenge myself, but because of my stupid knee (which it looks like I will have to get an MRI on because its not getting better :-( ) I basically sat down the whole time except walking around a couple times with my little people and then speed walking to the bathroom because the 3-year-old decided to wait until the last minute to tell me he had to pee. Awesomeness! So around 3am, my littlest one had finally fallen asleep and the 6-year-old was in full battle with the sandman, and it had gotten quite cold. He was sitting on my lap and we had my Snuggie (they really are pretty awesome!) wrapped around us. He says, "Mommy, I wish there was a hot tub here to warm us up." I said, "Ok, that's good thinking." Then he says, "I wish I could just say, 'Like a good neighbor, State Farm is there....with a hot tub!'" LMFAO! Kids say the best stuff, at the best time.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
I Surrender To You...I'm Trying Anyway
This has been a tough 2 weeks. I managed to tear my meniscus in my right knee last week while I was running, I feel like I have had test, after test that I've been studying for and then this week, my allergies have put me on my ass again (STUPID ALLERGIES!!!) and today I had to go to urgent care to make sure it was just my stupid allergies AND because I have managed to have an allergic reaction to something that has caused hives all over my face, chest, back arms and legs. REALLY??!!! She seemed to think that I am having a reaction to the Aleve my primary care physician told me to take for my knee. Freakin ridonkulous! But you know what, I'm good. I graduate next week, I totally kicked ass on my final lab practical (97% baby!) and Mother's Day is this weekend and I get to eat all of my favorite things. Steak, shrimp, homemade mac and cheese and grilled asparagus. Hopefully a couple of bottles of wine to help wash it down although I do have 2 finals on Monday so I don't know how that will work out. LOL! It's cool though. I got this! Not to mention, 3 days after I graduate I start my Bio 202 class (the 2nd anatomy & physiology class) which is all crammed into a wonderful 6 weeks. How exciting!
I have been totally obsessed with Oprah ever since she announced her show was ending. I have watched basically all of her shows this season and I record her everyday. When OWN (the Oprah Winfrey Network for those of you out of the know) started, I was watching on the very first day and trying to recruit everyone else to watch it. I am sadly counting down the days until her show ends (May 25). She has this show on OWN called Master Class where people who are great in their field talk about their journey to become successful and what drove them to get there. I was immediately excited about the show because she showed clips of Jay-Z and Maya Angelou episodes and they are 2 of my favorites. I didn't watch a few because they just weren't interesting people to me, but then I saw a commercial, only once, that showed she was going to have her own episode of Master Class. I was really excited because I find her so inspirational to have come where she came from and reach the heights she has reached. It ended up being a 2-part one and I watched the 1st one and had to record the 2nd. That was a month ago. I finally had a chance to watch it yesterday when my husband went to workout with some friends and my little people were occupied playing and watching cartoons. Let me preface this by saying, I have been facing a lot of inner turmoil concerning my decision to go to school full time and not work, leaving the financial burden to my husband. With him being out of work right now, I have felt that perhaps I needed to sacrifice my dream a little and work part time. I have struggled with it because I am very much an "independent woman" and I always worked for everything I wanted on my own. Just being a stay at home mommy since I lost my job in 2009 was very challenging to me because I didn't feel like I was doing enough for my family. The turmoil I face is feeling the need to contribute financially, yet feeling very at peace when I hear God telling me that to become a physician. I know this is where I am supposed to be and when I am supposed to be doing it. I have no question about that but I also know that we can choose to ignore what He shows us and continue on our own path. I have very fervently been asking Him to give me a sign to show me whether I should try to work or whether I should just continue on the path I am on. The first sign I got was that I received 2 times what I needed for my financial aid for the summer. For us that is almost a months worth of bills. But that wasn't enough for me. My prayer to Him was "God show me what I am supposed to do and make it so clear that I cannot possibly misread or misunderstand it. Help me to know that I am doing the right thing." So last week I hurt my knee. Then while I'm depressed about my knee and feeling like crap because of my stupid allergies (STUPID ALLERGIES!!) I watch Oprah. She was talking about what she's has gone through where she came from and she started talking about how she has always felt like she was going with the flow that God had for her. That she was very mindful and open to what He showed her and she was more than willing to follow His plan. She said that she felt that was the reason she had reached the success she had reached, because she always knew that He required more from her and she always felt that she was destined for more. She started talking about her getting the part in "The Color Purple," which is ironically one of my favorite books and movies. She said that she wanted it so bad that the only thing she prayed for after auditioning was to get the part. When she read in the audition, she was sure that the fact that she was playing Sophia, who is married to Harpo (Oprah spelled backwards) it was a sure sign that it was meant to be. She felt that it was all that she wanted in the world, even more than what she wanted for her show, which was not nationally syndicated yet. Oprah said that she felt that she was not going to get the part when she found out Alfre Woodard, "a real actress," was auditioning that it wasn't going to happen for her. She went to a fat farm in Wisconsin and while running around the track she began singing an old gospel song. Part of it goes, " I surrender to you, Lord I surrender to you..." She didn't believe the words when she first started saying them, she still didn't think that she wanted to actually see the movie when it came out without her in it, but day after day of singing the song and praying to give her the strength to surrender it over to Him, she was finally able to believe her words and allow it to totally be in God's hands. That same day she came to that realization, Steven Spielberg called her and said she got the part.
God has a way of doing things and showing you what it is you should be doing and when you are supposed to do it, but you have to be willing to listen. I have finally realized that in order to get where I want to be and where He wants me to be, I need to surrender to Him. I'm not saying that I believe it 100% right now, but I know that if I keep asking for the strength He will give me the strength to surrender. I truly feel that He wants me to do great things to help people and be the change I want to see in the world.
I have been totally obsessed with Oprah ever since she announced her show was ending. I have watched basically all of her shows this season and I record her everyday. When OWN (the Oprah Winfrey Network for those of you out of the know) started, I was watching on the very first day and trying to recruit everyone else to watch it. I am sadly counting down the days until her show ends (May 25). She has this show on OWN called Master Class where people who are great in their field talk about their journey to become successful and what drove them to get there. I was immediately excited about the show because she showed clips of Jay-Z and Maya Angelou episodes and they are 2 of my favorites. I didn't watch a few because they just weren't interesting people to me, but then I saw a commercial, only once, that showed she was going to have her own episode of Master Class. I was really excited because I find her so inspirational to have come where she came from and reach the heights she has reached. It ended up being a 2-part one and I watched the 1st one and had to record the 2nd. That was a month ago. I finally had a chance to watch it yesterday when my husband went to workout with some friends and my little people were occupied playing and watching cartoons. Let me preface this by saying, I have been facing a lot of inner turmoil concerning my decision to go to school full time and not work, leaving the financial burden to my husband. With him being out of work right now, I have felt that perhaps I needed to sacrifice my dream a little and work part time. I have struggled with it because I am very much an "independent woman" and I always worked for everything I wanted on my own. Just being a stay at home mommy since I lost my job in 2009 was very challenging to me because I didn't feel like I was doing enough for my family. The turmoil I face is feeling the need to contribute financially, yet feeling very at peace when I hear God telling me that to become a physician. I know this is where I am supposed to be and when I am supposed to be doing it. I have no question about that but I also know that we can choose to ignore what He shows us and continue on our own path. I have very fervently been asking Him to give me a sign to show me whether I should try to work or whether I should just continue on the path I am on. The first sign I got was that I received 2 times what I needed for my financial aid for the summer. For us that is almost a months worth of bills. But that wasn't enough for me. My prayer to Him was "God show me what I am supposed to do and make it so clear that I cannot possibly misread or misunderstand it. Help me to know that I am doing the right thing." So last week I hurt my knee. Then while I'm depressed about my knee and feeling like crap because of my stupid allergies (STUPID ALLERGIES!!) I watch Oprah. She was talking about what she's has gone through where she came from and she started talking about how she has always felt like she was going with the flow that God had for her. That she was very mindful and open to what He showed her and she was more than willing to follow His plan. She said that she felt that was the reason she had reached the success she had reached, because she always knew that He required more from her and she always felt that she was destined for more. She started talking about her getting the part in "The Color Purple," which is ironically one of my favorite books and movies. She said that she wanted it so bad that the only thing she prayed for after auditioning was to get the part. When she read in the audition, she was sure that the fact that she was playing Sophia, who is married to Harpo (Oprah spelled backwards) it was a sure sign that it was meant to be. She felt that it was all that she wanted in the world, even more than what she wanted for her show, which was not nationally syndicated yet. Oprah said that she felt that she was not going to get the part when she found out Alfre Woodard, "a real actress," was auditioning that it wasn't going to happen for her. She went to a fat farm in Wisconsin and while running around the track she began singing an old gospel song. Part of it goes, " I surrender to you, Lord I surrender to you..." She didn't believe the words when she first started saying them, she still didn't think that she wanted to actually see the movie when it came out without her in it, but day after day of singing the song and praying to give her the strength to surrender it over to Him, she was finally able to believe her words and allow it to totally be in God's hands. That same day she came to that realization, Steven Spielberg called her and said she got the part.
God has a way of doing things and showing you what it is you should be doing and when you are supposed to do it, but you have to be willing to listen. I have finally realized that in order to get where I want to be and where He wants me to be, I need to surrender to Him. I'm not saying that I believe it 100% right now, but I know that if I keep asking for the strength He will give me the strength to surrender. I truly feel that He wants me to do great things to help people and be the change I want to see in the world.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
God, Help Me to Put It In Your Hands
So I'm pretty excited about registering for classes at ASU. I have to sit down with an advisor, hopefully next week but I am very anal and I had to look for the classes I want to take before I even go. It looks like I'll have a pretty good schedule and I will have most of Monday, Wednesday and Friday off with all of my classes on Tuesday and Thursday. I really can't wait. I still have so much to do though outside of school.
As content as I am in the educational and familial part of my life, the financial part of my life has been stressful. My husband is still without a job and I still feel like all the signs God shows me point to the fact that I should not be working. It's a conundrum. I pray to God to allow me to put it all in His hands and not worry about it, but my nature is to worry and want to fix it. I struggle with myself because my instinct is to go work and not take the summer school class that I really want to take but after I got the financial aid that I needed to take my A&P class plus my world religions class, PLUS some extra money, I knew that He was telling me that taking the class is the right thing to do. I struggle with it though. I feel like He has something really big in store for my husband but He wants to test our patience so that we are ready for it. Hopefully we get some good news this week and some of the applications he put in over the weekend and today are what we are waiting for.
On the bright side, my oldest son (6 year old) is being tested for the gifted program today. I'm really excited about it because I was in the gifted program and I loved it. I can remember being really bored in school before I was in it and after it I loved school. He has been having a hard time because he feels like he learns the same stuff everyday and it is stuff he already knows. I really want him to be excited about learning and reading so for me it will be really great if he can get in the program right when 2nd grade starts and really enjoy learning for the whole school year. He's such a phenomenal little boy. He amazes me with how smart he is and how fast he picks things up on his own. He's the coolest!! The little one (3 year old) is pretty cool too! Lol!
As content as I am in the educational and familial part of my life, the financial part of my life has been stressful. My husband is still without a job and I still feel like all the signs God shows me point to the fact that I should not be working. It's a conundrum. I pray to God to allow me to put it all in His hands and not worry about it, but my nature is to worry and want to fix it. I struggle with myself because my instinct is to go work and not take the summer school class that I really want to take but after I got the financial aid that I needed to take my A&P class plus my world religions class, PLUS some extra money, I knew that He was telling me that taking the class is the right thing to do. I struggle with it though. I feel like He has something really big in store for my husband but He wants to test our patience so that we are ready for it. Hopefully we get some good news this week and some of the applications he put in over the weekend and today are what we are waiting for.
On the bright side, my oldest son (6 year old) is being tested for the gifted program today. I'm really excited about it because I was in the gifted program and I loved it. I can remember being really bored in school before I was in it and after it I loved school. He has been having a hard time because he feels like he learns the same stuff everyday and it is stuff he already knows. I really want him to be excited about learning and reading so for me it will be really great if he can get in the program right when 2nd grade starts and really enjoy learning for the whole school year. He's such a phenomenal little boy. He amazes me with how smart he is and how fast he picks things up on his own. He's the coolest!! The little one (3 year old) is pretty cool too! Lol!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
I Get to Wear Pretty Stuff!
So the last few weeks have been very full of studying. I have 3 weeks left and I am still doing very well in my classes, but its hard to not want to slack off. I'm not going to do it though. I have worked so hard to get the grades I have and I would be so mad at myself if I didn't continue to get As. I'm almost there though. I picked up my cap and gown yesterday and it felt so good to know that I am about to reach first step of this journey I am on. This will be Graduation Number 1, just 2 more graduations to go. It seems so insignificant to so many people, but I can now say that I am the first college graduate in my family. I am graduating with distinction and as a member of Phi Theta Kappa (that means I get to wear a stole and a cord! Pretty stuff!). I'm really excited!
I'm so excited for the next step, moving on to ASU. I'm really nervous about the classes and instructors but I feel like I have prepared myself well. I'm a worrier though so I will be concerned about it until I get there. I think that maybe I need to see the campus and walk around a little to see what it's like to feel a little more comfortable. Part of my apprehension right now is coming from not really knowing what the future holds for us. The possibility of having to work part-time still looms and I worry about how that will effect my school work. I know I can do it but that does nothing to make me feel better about the situation right now. I am trying my hardest to put it in God's hands and let Him guide us in our decisions but the little voice in the back of my head has a slight case of OCD and it likes to worry about how the bills will be paid. What is meant to happen, will happen. I just need that little voice to accept that. Lol!
I'm so excited for the next step, moving on to ASU. I'm really nervous about the classes and instructors but I feel like I have prepared myself well. I'm a worrier though so I will be concerned about it until I get there. I think that maybe I need to see the campus and walk around a little to see what it's like to feel a little more comfortable. Part of my apprehension right now is coming from not really knowing what the future holds for us. The possibility of having to work part-time still looms and I worry about how that will effect my school work. I know I can do it but that does nothing to make me feel better about the situation right now. I am trying my hardest to put it in God's hands and let Him guide us in our decisions but the little voice in the back of my head has a slight case of OCD and it likes to worry about how the bills will be paid. What is meant to happen, will happen. I just need that little voice to accept that. Lol!
Thursday, April 7, 2011
God, I'm Still a Work in Progress....
So the last few weeks have been full of "stuff." I had a very nice spring break and I slept in every day and worked out most of the week. It was pretty great. I spent time with my little people and my spectacular husband. I have been kicking ass on my tests (100% on my last Anatomy & Physiology test WOO-HOO!) and school has been really great. In a month I will be graduating and then the plan is to take an online world religions class to finish my associates and hopefully, the 2nd A&P class so I don't have to worry about it at ASU. It's a boot camp class but my instructor is phenomenal. I can only take it if the financial aid I need comes through though so send prayers please! I'm also going through the process of applying for the honors college at ASU and writing the essays that are required as well as asking my instructors for letters of recommendation. It seems like a long process but I really feel like it will be worth it to prepare me for medical school. I figure that if I can't get through honors college and getting my bachelors, with a minor, I probably won't be able to make it in medical school. It seems crazy, I guess, but totally makes sense to my crazy head.
On the flip side, my husband is still without a job and, financially, life has been a struggle. It was hard to admit to myself that I may need to work while going to school because I had my heart set on being able to completely focus on school, but I'm beginning to feel that maybe it is what is required in the long run. It would be a lesson on how to juggle my family and school/work/residency/fellowships/etc. Again, if I can't do it now, I won't be able to do it then. I applied for a position at Phoenix Children's Hospital as a laboratory assistant and I'm kind of hoping that it's the one. It would be a good experience and they want nights and evenings. Only time will tell, but it feels right. Again, prayers please! Lol!
The stress had been getting to me for awhile and my health was beginning to suffer, but I'm really trying to let it go and get on with it. I think that we, especially women, underestimate what we can handle, but when we do it and still accomplish what it is we really want, we realize we always had the strength, we just didn't have the confidence we needed to quell the fears we had. I'm still underestimating myself a little, but I'm getting there. God, I'm still a work in progress, grant me the strength to have the confidence to know I can do everything I want to do and do it well.
On the flip side, my husband is still without a job and, financially, life has been a struggle. It was hard to admit to myself that I may need to work while going to school because I had my heart set on being able to completely focus on school, but I'm beginning to feel that maybe it is what is required in the long run. It would be a lesson on how to juggle my family and school/work/residency/fellowships/etc. Again, if I can't do it now, I won't be able to do it then. I applied for a position at Phoenix Children's Hospital as a laboratory assistant and I'm kind of hoping that it's the one. It would be a good experience and they want nights and evenings. Only time will tell, but it feels right. Again, prayers please! Lol!
The stress had been getting to me for awhile and my health was beginning to suffer, but I'm really trying to let it go and get on with it. I think that we, especially women, underestimate what we can handle, but when we do it and still accomplish what it is we really want, we realize we always had the strength, we just didn't have the confidence we needed to quell the fears we had. I'm still underestimating myself a little, but I'm getting there. God, I'm still a work in progress, grant me the strength to have the confidence to know I can do everything I want to do and do it well.
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