Still Working for What My Heart is Saying

I have been lazier than lazy the last week and a half but my husband keeps telling me I deserve it. I can't seem to register that in my brain though. I haven't even been running regularly. I keep blaming it on the cold but I really just can't seem to get jump-started to do anything. I only have one more week off and then we get it going again. In actuality, the other thing that has really kept us from doing things outside of the house is the lack of funds. I feel bad at times because I turn down requests to go places but a lot of the time its because we simply do not have the money to go. I feel, at times, that people just think we're being rude for saying no to things which makes me feel bad, but I know that these are sacrifices we need to make right now because of the path I have chosen. It doesn't always make it easier but my brain definitely understands the purpose. Aside from that, I have a week to get our house back in order. During the semester I have to just ignore the housework at times in order to place more of the focus on my schoolwork but I have no excuse now. BTW, I hate cleaning but at the same time I hate when it's not clean. Go figure.

I am rededicating myself to running this week too. I didn't run for 3 weeks because I chose sleep over running at the end of the semester but I can't stay down that long. I am planning on doing a half marathon in 9 weeks. I think that I can train for it in that amount of time and I know that if I sign up for it, I'll do it because I cannot stand to waste money. As soon as my financial aid comes in this week I'M SIGNING UP! I also have a 7k I'm going to sign up for later in March. I'm excited to get started again but my running schedule will definitely have to change with my new school schedule and with my husband starting school also. It should be interesting.

Speaking of school, I ended the semester with a 3.56 GPA which is only .03 less than it was before this semester. That fact alone made my C in organic chemistry bearable. I got a B+ in physics and A's in the rest of my classes including my organic chemistry lab. If I can get A's in the rest of my classes (which I can totally do) I should still be able to bring my GPA up a considerable amount in my last 3 semesters.

Everything in my life always seems like so much but I just keep telling myself, "I'm working for what my heart is saying." It always works.

Organic Chemistry Will be the Death of Me!

Wow! It's been over a month since my last post. So much to catch up on, soooooo....Organic chemistry is still kicking my ass and with less than 2 weeks left of school I have to dedicate the next 10 days to school. I may actually have to be ok with a C in OChem, which I will not really be ok with but I can deal with it. I'm pretty sure I can pull a B out of physics (Thank God!) and the rest of my classes will be A's (2 nutrition classes and my 2 research credits). There is a slight possibility that OChem could be a B but I would have to kill the final. I'm going to make that my goal but I'm holding no expectations that miracles will occur. I can admit that chemistry just doesn't make sense to my brain and I worked pretty damn hard for whatever grade I get. I still don't know how I got a B the first semester. I am actually more concerned with how a C will affect my GPA. Worrying never benefited anyone though right? Anywho, I still have a lot of work to complete the next 10 days because I have to cram 29.5 hours of work on my research project, I have to write a 1000 word research paper, I have to complete a group project for nutrition and I have a 4th test AND a final to complete for physics. On top of that, I refuse to not run so I will be fitting that in when I can. I have already made a schedule for this week and I actually think that I can stick to it, mostly. I.GOT.THIS!! I just keep telling myself that after this semester my life will be less stressful and I'll be beginning the adventure that will truly bring me to the next destination, OSTEOPATHIC SCHOOL!!! I'm not quite there though but it's coming really fast.

My schedule for next semester has been the one thing that has kept me going. It's pretty relaxed compared to the last 6 semester I've had since I only have 1 science class. Woo-hoo! I'm trying to do some volunteering at a local clinic and I am going to contact some physicians about shadowing for the semester as well. I think that would be really phenomenal. I also have a friend from high school who is a physician and I really want to pick her brain a little. Along with all of that, my husband is starting school also. I'm really excited for him and proud of him. He has had a whole bunch of opportunities set before him and the only thing left to do to put all the pieces in place is for him to get his degree. Even if we end up moving for my school, we're making sure that he can continue on his path. He really is a phenomenal man and this journey of mine would not be possible without him.

So my both of my little people are a year older now (5 & 8) and as much as I love seeing them grow, I miss when they were little and they could sit in my lap and I could hold them. My babies are getting too huge! No seriously, my 8 y.o. wears a size 12 in clothes, a 5.5 in shoes and weighs 75 lbs. My 5 y.o. is trying his hardest to catch up too. Despite that, it is really cool to have real conversations with both of them and learn about how and what they think about things. They have a winter concert next week so pictures may be in order.