Our Lives Are Full of Possibilities

My first week of exams is over and I survived. I now know #1: I need to start studying NOW for my next tests, and #2: I will make it. I had tests in nutrition (241), biology (182) and chemistry (116 or 152). I got a B, an A and a B, respectively. I am not very happy about the B's but it at least means I can still get A's in those classes if I study more. I very much like my classes and instructors so I know can get to where I need to be. I aim for all A's which might seem a little crazy, but I hope to have the luxury of choosing where I want to go to medical school, instead of hoping I get chosen. To a certain extent anyway. All in all, I feel very good about school and I am really enjoying it.

The only thing that is kind of dragging me down right now is the tiredness I feel all the time. There are days when it is not so bad, but then there are days (like today) where I just feel exhausted after getting a full nights sleep. Its kind of frustrating because I feel like I am taking good care of myself by running 3 times a week, doing yoga and trying to make better choices about the food I eat. It makes the health issues I faced a couple of years ago come back to the forefront. I try not to think of the possibility of what some of the symptoms I have been having may mean, but sometimes it can be hard to not think about it. I suppose I should go back to the doctor and talk to him about some of these symptoms, but its so easy to find excuses not to go. Part of it may be that I do not want to know what they could mean. Considering what it is I want to do (be a physician), you would think that I would be running to go see the doctor, but I have seen that many health professionals do not take care of themselves very well and the reasoning behind that may be that they already know what the symptoms may mean and do not want to deal with it and add it to the already full plate that life has become. So why not start now right? LOL!

Outside of school, my family has been phenomenal. Despite the fact that my husband still does not have a job, it has been great to see him be able to spend more time with our little people and my appreciation for him as grown because he has been infinitely understanding of my needs and the needs of our boys. We are celebrating our 4 year anniversary this week and it has really made me reflect on where we were and where we are now. Although financially we struggle and, quite honestly, do not know where our next check is going to come from, God always finds a way to make sure we have what we need for us and for our little guys. That fact continues to reassure me that we are still on the path that He he asks of us. I feel as though this has been a build up that will culminate in my husband truly finding himself, finding his path and believing in himself enough to pursue it. I truly feel like the possibilities are endless.

I Am Nothing Without the People In My Life, And They're Pretty Cool

I have to say that school is pretty amazing! My classes and instructors are fantastic. So my CHM 116 instructor is awesome but I feel kind of lost at times because I HATE CHEMISTRY! Really I just don't feel like the class I took at community college prepared me. It doesn't help that I just have such a hard time comprehending the concepts at times. I'm not wired that way. My instructor is awesome though and I like the way he explains things. My NTR 241 instructor is, in my mind, a walking nutrition encyclopedia. She is one of the authors of the textbook we use and she knows endless amounts of information. It's amazing to me. I just want to pick her brain. Needless to say I really enjoy that class. My BIO 182 instructor is a geeky looking guy who was a researcher at one time and is quite obviously super smart. He has a really good way of explaining things and he's pretty funny. I like his class very much but his lack of organization may drive crazy. I'm a little OCD with my school stuff. Maybe a lot OCD. My HSC 300 (Complementary Healthcare) class is cool. It's kind of my easy class, but my instructor used to be a chiropractor and he is a wealth of knowledge. He gives no homework and he said all his tests will be multiple choice. I will take it! He's really cool though and I spent an hour last week talking to him after class about how I wanted to be a doctor and about some alternative therapies that are used in chiropractic care that I feel might benefit me to learn for osteopathic care. He also gave me some guidance concerning volunteering and people I should connect with. Super cool!! All in all I love the experiences I'm having at school. Chemistry may kick my ass a little, but I will get it it done...hopefully with an A.

My little people have been awesome. Our 6 y.o. is in 2nd grade and he's doing pretty well. He's in a class with almost all girls, which is interesting, but he really likes it. I'm super excited that he's in the gifted program but at the same time concerned that the one day a week he willing be getting just won't be enough for him. I am understanding more and more the state of our educational system in Arizona. It's kind of sad. I guess we'll just have to do it ourselves then. My 3 y.o. is a trip. He is totally Mr. Personality. He totally knows how cute he is and just amazes me. I'm so excited for him to go to school next year because I know he'll love it. We have him working too. He's got workbooks and flashcards and a new writing tablet. He is set!

My husband has been absolutely phenomenal! I don't know what I would do if he didn't support me the way he does. I take my oldest to school in the morning and wake up with the little people, but after I leave, he's SuperDaddy! He spends all day with our 3 y.o., picks our 6 y.o. up from school and makes dinner at least 3 times a week. AND, he doesn't complain. Because I am at school ALL DAY  on Tuesdays and Thursdays, he gets the boys all to himself ALL DAY!! I remember those days and it can be a lot but he's totally cool with it. Despite the financial difficulties we have had while my husband has been out of work, I don't think that either one of us would change what we have been experiencing with our boys. The time we have been able to spend with the kids and with each other has been life-changing. I've never been more appreciative of the little things and how having simply the things we NEED is enough. I'm so excited to say that we will be celebrating our 4th anniversary on the 20th. Woo-hoo! You're the bestest baby!